Monday, August 14, 2006

Benjamin

Our son Benjamin died eight years ago. We still feel the loss.

Grief is a constant. It was a sharp pain, but over time it has changed. Now it's a deep sorrow.

Although he was only an infant, he embodied our hopes and dreams. I tell Zoe, his twin sister, that he lives in her heart.

I have trouble with religion in general, and loosing him didn't help matters. It's just not possible to understand why such terrible things have to happen.

At sundown yesterday, Zoe lit a Yahrzeit candle. Jews commemorate the anniversary of the death of a loved one by lighting a slow-burning candle, called a yahrzeit candle, which burns throughout the 24-hour day of the anniversary of death. The flame of the candle is a symbol of the flame of life that once burned brightly and illumined the lives of loved ones who mourn the loss.

I'm so glad that Zoe survived. She made it possible for us to go on.

2 comments:

zoe said...

i've just popped in here after seeing that you passed by my blog and this post has brought tears to my eyes. i am very sorry for your loss - especially for zoe as twins are meant to be hit harder for obvious reasons.

as the great freddie once sang, "the show must go on" - but i do like the idea of lighting a candle that burns for the entire day to commemorate the passing of a lost one. xx

LUCRECIA said...

I am very sorry for your lost too, i hope you have a good life and be happy, your son will live inside your heart for ever, i admire your strength and i wish you better times, kisses, lucrecia